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Rain and Mist
03:09
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soft rain and mist, how did it end up like this?
you are complicit in the melting down of it
sapphic and dysphoric, you know i’m losing it
losing this sense of self that you have left me with
could i turn into somebody else
if i just got ahold of the right help?
could we medicate all this pain away?
anesthetize anesthetize to last another fucking day
soft rain and mist, i’m such a fucking bitch
you’re such an empty whore
and, oh i adore every inch of you you give away to everyone else
my emptiness slips and fades
soft rain and mist, i am so delicate
was i born with this
incongruence
has me lost in my sad self
has me hating everybody else
my useless body and my eloquence can turn any bliss into a threat in and of itself
i think you’re bad for my health, i think you’re bad for my health
if it wasn’t you it would be somebody else
soft rain and mist will make me fade like this
my femininity is a gift unto itself
soft rain and mist, i’ve got a brand new list
of people that aren’t good for my health
i’ve been killing myself around you
i’ve been killing myself to be around you
soft rain and mist, why do we fall like this?
i am going to become something full of shit
as i atrophy
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The Way It's Going To Be
03:20
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is this the way that it's going to be?
did something change inside of you, or me?
is this the way that it's going to be?
could something change down inside of me?
you were too perfect, these nights too long
i can't escape it, this constant fog
i can't erase it
what you gave to me
is everything that i wanted, and now
is this the way that it's going to be?
is this the way that it's going to be?
could i do something down inside of me?
is this the way that it's going to be?
i can't escape it --
my cut skin is burning constantly, constantly thinking of you
won't you come here and comfort me like you did before?
like you did before
is this the way that it's going to be?
every night i am denied sleep
is this the way that it's going to be?
all that i want is you next to me, next to
everything that ever went wrong
everything that i couldn't fit into these songs
everything that ever went wrong
i guess i should have known all along that
this is the way that things are going to be
this is the way that it's going to be
i shut my eyes, but i still see
everything that you gave to me
what's the matter with everything about me?
this dysphoria is deep down inside of me
this dysphoria is consuming all of me
all of me
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Where We Used To Sleep
03:42
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all’s not well
i tend to find
you are still on my mind
all's not well
i tend to find
you are still on my mind
remember where we used to reside?
remember when you were by my side
in the place where we used to sleep.
you used to sleep right next to me
i wouldn't want to stay with me, either
letting go of myself, can't get away from myself
i lost myself in all of you
i've been finding myself, and it's the last thing i want to do
dear god, i miss you
so come over
come closer to me, come right over to me
where we used to sleep
come closer, come right over to me
where we used to sleep, where you used to sleep
come closer, come right over to me
in the place where i never sleep
all's well, i tend to find
you're still on my mind
we're still on my mind
come closer, come right over to me
come right over to me, where you used to sleep
come closer, come right over to me
where i never sleep
i'll never sleep again
i'll never sleep again
none of this is happening --
did you want everything you said it would be?
none of this is happening
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Leave Me Alone
03:51
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suicide sounds quite nice
when you’re living such an empty life
suicide sounds quite nice when you’re surrounded by so many lies
at the end of each year i don’t feel anything good, and i wonder if i ever should
all my fears hold me down, hold me down and scream in my mouth
i’ll cry inside this house
leave me alone, i don’t want to talk to
anyone i’ve ever known about you
this isn’t living, but i just can’t seem to die
everyone says that i will heal in time
well how fucking long?
how fucking long is it gonna take for this pain to go away?
just like everyone else, just like everyone else
trauma won’t abate, these memories don’t seem to fade
take childhood away
leave me alone, i don’t want to talk to
anyone i’ve ever known
leave me alone, i pick up the phone and there’s
no one there that ever cares
don’t leave me alone, i don’t want to sit in this empty home,
you know hope’s all gone
are you gonna haunt my every night?
these dreams of you are a poison delight
so leave me alone, i don’t want to talk to
anyone i’ve ever known about you
don’t leave me in here, please don’t leave me in here
i always have new wounds and fears
wounds and tears
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All the Mirrors
03:13
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your friends all say that you should have another
hospital stay, and you’re scaring your mother
paint a happy face on all the mirrors and wish your own away
paint a happy face on all the mirrors and cut this life away
your friends all say that you should have another
hospital stay, oh, i’m scaring my mother
my motherfucking head won’t get back together again
no matter what they said, no matter what they said
no matter what they said —
it doesn’t matter what they said
wish it all away, wish it all away
i am not this face
i’m not in this place
your friends all say that you should have another
hospital stay, and you’re scaring your mother
paint a happy face on all the mirrors and wish your own away
i’ll paint a happy face on all the mirrors and wish my own away
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Oxytocin
04:26
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why yes, i’m depressed, it’s like you know me the best
so let’s just have sex and forget about the rest
in your room, in this tomb, for an hour or two
can i crawl inside your womb?
can i die inside of you?
every drink is full of thoughts of you
and i swallow them down
feel you seeping in my mouth, my mouth
why yes, i’m depressed, it’s like you know me the best
so let’s just have sex and forget about the rest
in my room, in this tomb, for an hour or two
i can crawl inside of you, i can die inside of you
my slow suicide is not ending my life fast enough
my slow suicide isn’t ending my life fast enough
empty of all the things i need, and full of all the ones i don’t
i’m empty of all the things i need
could you please get in my throat?
why yes, i’m depressed, it’s like you know me the best
so let’s just have sex and forget about the rest
in your room, in this tomb, for an hour or two
i can die inside of you
i’ll swallow every last drop of these drinks that are full of thoughts of you
limerence is a bitch, isn’t it?
and i’ll make it mine, i’ll make it mine all of the time
limerence is a bitch, isn’t it?
i’ll make it mine all of the time
why yes, i’m depressed, it’s like you know me the best
so let’s just have sex and forget about the rest
in this room, in this tomb, for an hour or two
can i crawl inside your womb?
can i die inside of you?
oh dear, please kill me
do it so sweetly
oh dear, please kill me
and then we all came down and we figured it out and there was no one left standing around
and then we all came down and we figured it out and there was no one left standing around
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Hatefuck
03:20
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as the rot sets in, as the rust runs through our blood
as i wait for you i start to come undone
as the storm rolls in, everyone runs away
who’s inside of me today?
i know that everything is wrong, and if you say it gets better, that’s how i know it won’t
still got the taste of you down inside my throat
between the two of us who can i hate the most?
so just lead me on, oh, lead me astray
just hatefuck me away
i told you that i am just a stray so please hatefuck me away
hatefuck me away
who’s inside of me today?
who’s inside of me?
now my earth has quaked and all the rain has made a lake inside the cracks
and as i start to drown and i begin to thrash i know that no one is coming back
so hatefuck me away, hatefuck me away
can i please shut my eyes to stand your taste?
just hatefuck me away;
who am i supposed to be today?
who’s inside of me today?
who’s inside of me today?
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8. |
Limerence
04:22
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i see you in my bed
won’t you climb out of my head?
i see you in my bed
won’t you please crawl out of my head and
into my life again
these dreams do not relent
and would i want them to, if they’re the only way that i still talk to you?
i see you in my bed
won’t you climb out of my head?
i see you in my bed
won’t you please come out of my head and
into my arms again
these dreams of you don’t ever relent
and if they do, would i want them to? would i want them to?
i don’t want them to
can’t find happiness in anyone else,
and i am certainly not finding it inside of myself
my bed swallowed me whole and wouldn’t spit me out
‘till all my nightmares built up into a shout
every night in my head she still visits me
and it’s making it hard to stay asleep
‘cause when i wake up her absence is all i see
i can feel her ghost still next to me
a thousand ghosts of who we almost were are cheering, cheering
confetti falling with my body to the floor
i won’t bleed out here, ‘cause i don’t bleed anymore
i don’t bleed anymore, i don’t bleed anymore
can i get you out of my head and into my life again?
into my life again?
a thousand ghosts of who we almost were are cheering, cheering
confetti falling with my body to the floor, i won’t bleed out here
‘cause i don’t bleed anymore
i see you in my bed, won’t you come crawling out of my head and
into my arms again, into my life again?
i see you in my bed, won’t you please come crawling out of my head and
come to me again?
does this limerence ever end?
hold on, hold onto me
hold on, hold onto me
hold on, dear darling
hold on, dear darling
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9. |
Slit Wrists Remain
04:06
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slit wrists never count on this,
never hoping to persist
i need blood and i’m out of spit,
everything’s too much, all of it
a new pain, a new ache
a new way to stay the same
i give up on this place
i give up, but i still remain
this is getting to be too much;
i can’t rest with what we’ve done
ready to float like an astronaut,
ready to burst from what we’ve wrought
no point in carrying words,
when you know they’ll never be heard
no point in giving birth,
when you know what this life is worth
a new loss, a new pain
a new place, we stay the same
a new god, a new hate
a new way we stay the same
christ can listen, you won’t call
i don’t want to be anything at all
walk 12 steps with flowers in hand
new blood listens to old demands
fade with fog right out of view
draining blood that pumps through you
a new heart, a new stain
a new place, we stay the same
i give up on this fate, i give up, won’t get away
slit wrists remain, slit wrists remain
slit wrists remain, can’t rinse these stains
a new love, a new hate
a new way to stay the same
a sick heart, the same pain
when you’re gone, i’ll still remain
bloodied and numb, cut up and dumb —
i still remain
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crimesididntcommit Florida
crimesididntcommit is the transgender electroheartache project of veronica emilyn, fusing darkwave, industrial and goth stylings into genre-defying explorations of mental illness, queer identity and the horrific beauty of being in a body that knows it is alive. crimesididntcommit is for the lost who don’t want to be found. songs ghosts can dance to. ... more
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