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    my new album SILK. as a physical object on a dead media format. comes in a CD wallet case designed by yours truly. signed and numbered, a limited edition of 20 copies.

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1.
Pink and Blue 03:39
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cast in pink, we feel so blue pink and blue oo oo oo i wish i could look like you just like you oo oo oo i am spitting up all my guts bubblegum into this cup mix it up, pour it down and spin my thoughts around spit it back in my mouth, i swear i’ll take it down could you make me shout? out of this room i don’t know what to do always pink, we’re always blue pink and blue oo oo oo wrapped in your lovely gloom, lovely gloo oo oo oom i don’t know what we’ll do dragging our bodies through this room i’ve given this all up before but we find ourselves coming back for more i am spitting up, all my guts bubblegum into this cup mix it up, pour me down and spin my thoughts around spit it back in my mouth i swear i’ll take it down could you make me shout? cast in pink, i’m always blue pink and blue oo oo oo wrapped in your lovely gloom lovely gloo oo oo oom i can take it down perpetual rain clouds this neon spilling out from our seeping mouths pink and blue, pink and blue pink and blue oo oo oo wrapped in your lovely gloom lovely gloo oo oo oom you spin my thoughts around i should just lie down you spin my thoughts around
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Defensive Wounds 02:02
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love bites on the neck veins on my wrists that i couldn’t protect i feel it cutting in i feel you dig into my skin our lips bleed down our chins our hands search deeper in i’ve fed you all i ever could and it’s not enough for you never enough for you i can’t ever get away from all of these fucking mistakes i can’t ever break away, i can’t ever break away bites on my neck and wrists defensive wounds, offensively i want to bite your skin i want to forget you in agony i’m in agony out with you and let it bleed and let it bleed and let it drip down through these sheets, through these years i always become what i fear
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Can't Quit You 04:30
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go on, take it away i know it’s all the same each time it starts to rain you silence my complaints and when a little becomes a lot i’ll still take all you’ve got i can’t quit you, baby it makes me sick, but maybe we can get out of here find new ways to disappear we can get out of here find ways to disappear, ‘cause i can’t quit you, darling nothing ever shines as bright as i do in your dark eyes as i do in your dark eyes i can’t quit you, darling nothing ever shines as bright as i do in your dark eyes as i do in your dark eyes i can’t quit you, darling nothing ever feels as right as this does in your dark eyes as it does taking my life come on, come on come back to me, come back to me again come on, come on come back, you know you’re my only friend i can’t quit you, now how many years have we drowned? i can’t quit you, now not when i’m feeling down i can’t quit you darling nothing ever shines as bright as i do in your dark eyes as i do in your dark eyes i can’t quit you darling nothing ever feels as right as it does in your dark eyes as it does taking my life in library elevators airport parking pickup spots i can live in all these thoughts you know that they’re all i’ve got, ‘cause i can’t quit you, darling nothing ever shines as bright as i do in your dark eyes as i do in your dark eyes i can’t quit you, darling memories are all i find looking for life in my eyes looking for life in all you left behind
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Dismay 04:03
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i feel it go down and through this hole drains rinse away our consensual dismay giving in, i’m giving out don’t ask me how i feel ‘cause i’m always down giving in, i’m giving out don’t ask me how i feel ‘cause i’m always down for you i see these bruises on your arms i know we both love all this harm and when we both do it this way we know that this is all it takes consensual dismay giving in, i’m giving out don’t ask me how i feel ‘cause i’m always down giving in, i’m giving out don’t ask me how i feel ‘cause i’m always down for you round and round we go where we get off, no one knows round and round we go hands wrapping around our throats i hate you the most giving in, i’m giving out don’t ask me how i feel ‘cause i’m always down giving in, i’m giving out don’t ask me how i feel ‘cause i’m always down for you i know it’s all for show but i cannot let go i know it’s all for show but i can’t let go overstimulate, annihilate this ache overstimulate, consensual dismay don’t ask how i feel you know none of this is real don’t ask how i feel you know none of this is real giving in, i’m giving out don’t ask me how i feel ‘cause i’m always down giving in, i’m giving out don’t ask me how i feel ‘cause i’m always down giving in, i’m giving out don’t ask me how i feel ‘cause i’m always down giving in, i’m giving out don’t ask me how i feel ‘cause i’m always down
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Throw It Away 02:54
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it doesn’t matter if you break me down it’s easier if you forget me now i don’t want to be haunted by your face don’t want to be haunted in this place don’t want to be haunted by your face hard to believe in the changes i’ve made can’t throw it away, oh no can’t throw it away, i know it’s all that i can do can’t throw it away, oh, i wish i’d done this for you i don’t want to be haunted by your face don’t want to be haunted in this place don’t want to be haunted by your face don’t want to be haunted in this place if you hate me now it’ll make it easier then just let go of me now i know what’s coming and i don’t want to be haunted by your face don’t want to be haunted in this place don’t want to be haunted by your face i mean it, i swear i’m trying to change doesn’t matter anyway, i fear (don’t want to be a ghost to you) i know i’m just a ghost to you here (don’t want to be forgotten too) and when the rest of me fades you’ll only remember my mistakes
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Licked Club Sweat 03:31
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now, you are nothing like nothing like me will i ever like this body? you are nothing like nothing like me will i ever like my body? licked club sweat off our necks tastes like ache no regrets licked club sweat off our necks tastes like ache no regrets oh you are nothing like nothing like me you say there’s something that you like about me will i ever like this body? i’m nothing like who i want to be licked club sweat off our necks tastes like ache no regrets licked club sweat off our necks i haven’t met who i am yet you are nothing like nothing like me i’m nothing like who i want to be you are nothing like nothing like me will i ever like this body?
7.
Starlight Softens 02:46
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won’t separate these stars let the sky blur together holding hands with the dark in love with this weather on this beach, i’m all alone i find myself and know i’m home with everything at my back there’s no one here to say what i lack for a perfect moment or two i know who i am in this gloom and for the first time since all we went through i’m not just thinking of you on this beach, i’m all alone i find myself and know i’m home holding hands with all the dark starlight softens these scars let the sky blur together i’m held by this night i don’t mind being alone beneath this sky
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Someone Else Is In Control 04:58
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oh, oh it’s here with me something else is in this bed i know, i’m never sure what is real and what is in my head when it gets all late like this anything can happen and i wouldn’t miss this for the world i feel like your favorite girl living under this bed takes a lot out of me but what’s the difference i know, i haven’t got a lot i’m doing all these shots i’m drowning out my thoughts i’ll drown completely, i know someone else is in control someone else is in control i know it’s happening again i know it’s just everything that i said i’m never sure what’s real or what’s pretend when i’m lying inside this bloodstained bed could you look away from the mess long enough to spit on my face? please, please spit on my face i know, someone else is in control i know, i haven’t got a lot i’m taking all these shots i’m drowning out these thoughts and killing tomorrow i’m burning down this home these ashes are my throne oh, oh, oh won’t you go and come back tomorrow and come back tomorrow there’s always room for another nightmare, nightmare
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Roof On Fire 03:15
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roof on fire in my home caving in to crush my bones making ashes from my face cut some lines and snort away getting high off my decay my pain won’t meet its end today they say this is the only way you ought to know just how we fade fade all the news is saying now it doesn’t matter if i drown but that’s alright, ‘cause i have found everything is just burning down roof on fire in this home caving in to crush these bones making ashes from my face they snort my lines, high on decay roof on fire in my home caving in to crush these bones making ashes from my face snort me up and wish away i can go away, i can go away if you want it, if you want it, if you want me today i’ll burn all day, i’ll burn all day, i’ll burn, i’ll burn, and we’ll all melt away and all the news is making sure it’s my kind you abhor roof on fire in my home caving in to crush these bones making ashes from my face getting high on my decay did you hear what they all say? that this is the only way getting high on my decay roof on fire on display
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Pushing Silk 03:05
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words swing and sway it’s better off this way her hospital stay couldn’t stop this sad display pushing silk deeper into her mouth hidden words are tumbling out pushing silk deeper into her mouth as my hand reaches in my words are taken down, we sway she won’t survive this stay oh, oh, they say: “it has to be this way” it doesn’t get… “better,” it’s just getting worse they’re gonna put our bodies in the back of their hearse and i know you can’t understand and i know you can’t surmount: we’re not the kind they cry about, darling we’re not the fucking kind they cry about. all that i’ve wanted to say i’ve wrapped in delicate lace can i feed it to you? pushing silk deeper into her mouth as my blood starts to thin the words spray out confetti in my veins, i start to shout on her behalf i’ll cry i can take it away hidden in her still face
11.
Hello Friend 03:30
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hello friend, i know i’ve made a mess oh, my friend, i know i make you so de— --pressed with these awful things pouring out, pouring out every little horrid thing that i can shout, i can shout hello friend, i know i’ve made a mess but, my friend — i swear i’ve tried my best to stop all these awful things from pouring out, pouring out every little horrid thing that i can shout, i can shout everyone who isn’t dead will go without, go without the comfort of a constant friend so stick around, stick around i’m pushing silk deeper into my mouth i feel my shouts all of them pouring out building up, falling down turn me right back around build me up, then rip me down pushing silk deeper into my mouth and i’m sorry for everything and i’ll always be and it doesn’t really matter but i promise i didn’t mean those things in this life we need something to hold, hold i think i’d better let you go, go.
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Skin and Stone 03:51
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marble slabs and skin in time all of us carved out alike our smooth skin and stone in time everything gets worn out by my mouth my tongue my teeth my throat i feel it dripping down my mouth my tongue my teeth my throat i feel it dripping down my mouth my tongue my teeth my throat our pain can always grow our smooth skin and stone alike marble slabs get carved in time our smooth skin and stone alike everything gets carved in time i feel it, and it’s divine all of it breaking inside my mouth my tongue my teeth my throat i feel it dripping down my mouth my tongue my teeth my throat i fell deeper down this hole remember, our pain can always grow our smooth skin and stone alike all of us are cut to size our smooth skin and stone alike everything wears out in time our pain can always grow better find something to hold our pain can always grow better find something to hold

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an album of physical sensations with emotional implications, stasis as apocalypse, the feeling of being choked by all that comforts the most.

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released April 19, 2024

all things by crimesididntcommit, with additional noises, conjurings and synths by rhododendron witch on tracks:
03, 04, 06, 07, 10 & 11.

dedicated to everyone i miss the most, and everyone who knows what it's like to mess it all up and have to learn to want to try again, building up, falling down, turning right back around.

thank you:

rivka — you are a true collaborator and confidant in ways that words cannot begin to distinguish. as artists we are magicians, and i have never made magic like i have with you. you create worlds in your sounds, and merging them with mine has created something that feels truly unique, vital and alive. thank you for trusting me completely and giving me so much attention, encouragement and guidance along the way. i would have never made this record without you, and i might have never finished it without you. it’s rare to meet the people we need to at the moment we need them the most, and you are one of the rarest there is. i’ve never been so proud of something as i am of this body of work, and had we never met, it would have never existed. thank you thank you thank you thank you. laura — i wouldn’t be who or where i am, or anything at all, without your light and love. nolan, michael, julian — thank you for sticking around. and to everyone who had enough of my shit and left along the way — i get it, i'm sorry, and i thank you for making me learn to value those still here the way i should have valued you all.

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crimesididntcommit is the transgender electroheartache project of veronica emilyn, fusing darkwave, industrial and goth stylings into genre-defying explorations of mental illness, queer identity and the horrific beauty of being in a body that knows it is alive. crimesididntcommit is for the lost who don’t want to be found. songs ghosts can dance to. ... more

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